The fact that you can go from having a somewhat good day to everything turning to shit because you hate yourself so goddamn much. I hate myself, the fucking situation I’m in that I can’t change for the better, the fact that my anxiety is slowly controlling my life all the more and I’m getting more and more scared of being out in public where people will look at me. I just want to be left alone but the second I am I want to stop existing and it scares me so much. I seriously don’t know what to do.
I really really really don’t want to live but I don’t want to die either. I want to put my life on pause and try to make things feel normal again. I hate this.
I just received news I was in no way expecting and they have left me curled up in a ball. I don’t know what to do or where to go. I almost feel like I don’t have a home anymore. I don’t know. But I’m probably not going to be very active here since I need time to process this. I’m sorry in advance for possible venting posts. You just never know I guess.
Shamelessly snapping mirror selfies while I’m out with my girls ♡
Having a wonderful time with these lovely ladies!! Ahh 💕
Hatar känslan som kommer varje natt.
Så bekant den har blivit
Ändå så främmande
Är så trött på den drypande känslan av total ensamhet.
Jag vill inte störa, så jag säger ingenting.
Ni försäkrar, lovar och hoppas att jag ska säga till när jag mår såhär.
Men jag vågar inte.
Jag vågar inte alls.
För jag är så mycket hellre ensam
Details on today’s outfit. Heart pin and necklace made by meltychocolatemoon~
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I honestly just really enjoy hosting giveaways and I hit 4,000 followers yesterday, so I thought it would be a good reason to host another one!
There will only be one winner this time, who will receive the following items:
- A few Little Twin Stars sticker sheets from Sanrio
- "Angel" print sweatshirt from The Festival Wear Co. in preferred size (she is also hosting a giveaway for a ton of products, which can be found here)
- Clear Dolly Choker from Creepyyeha in preferred color way
- "Angel" mini heart pin from Dollymilk in preferred colorway
- Must be following me, don’t worry! If you don’t like the content of my blog, I have and will post more giveaways where this is not mandatory, but because this is specifically a thank you to my followers, I want one of them to have the chance to win!
- One like and reblog per person. You may feel free to reblog this post more than once, however, it will not gain you extra entries, it will just scramble the order of the notes.
- Must be 18 years or older or have parental permission to enter!
- I will ship worldwide; you must be willing to provide me with your address. I will have all items shipped from the shops to me and then to you, so I will not be disclosing shipping information to anyone.
- Winner must have their ask box open and respond within 72 hours before a new one is drawn; I will also be announcing the winner publicly upon drawing.
Ends on Be An Angel Day (August 22, 2014) at noon Pacific Standard Time. Good luck!
To any new followers I’ve gotten over the past few days, I’m hosting a giveaway, which you’re all more than welcome to check out and enter!
Outfit from a while ago when I spent the day in Shimokitazawa (as usual)♥
it’s been ages since i properly drew something so i decided to draw mashyumaro and lupinebaby because theyre both super cute and have an amazing fashion sense omg………. also i miss them both!!!!!!! hopefully i’ll see you this summer!!!!!!!!!!!! stay amazing guys
NO WAYYYYYY you must be kidding me! Your art style has improved immensely and just!!! We look like two badass babes thank you so so much
Also we will hopefully see each other soon, if not there’s still time in October!!
I MISS YOU TOO JONTE BEB